Ok, jus wheni say i am alright....the feeling back again.This time more worse...I seriously think sth is wrong...how come my mood swing r like so bad? I don't even hav time to write in my handwritten diary...i can really feel my heart tearing apart...hurting but yet i don't even know why...let's see.Go back time.Wat did i do?i post my blog...surf net....go weihan's blog...watch anime...hmm...nothing wrong wat.Ok.Calm down.Take three deep breath...1,2,3.It is getting worse...Hey, inner, weak,self of me, can u stop that?where r u, happy side of me? I need u badly...please come back...ok.Gd. Now, i am like on the verge of tears...rem wat u promise yrself....no more tears.No way i am going back to me when i was young....Jus SHUT UP!!!Now, i am really scared...since when this occur to me? Ya, back in sec 2 wheni am running halfway...it is back.The power of 'Darkness' in me...Relax.It is ok.U r fine.I am really scared...i feel really terrible...stupid mood swing...Jus SHUT UP!!!......ok,.I can handle this...i jus go to sleep now...everything will be ok.