Ok, yesterday attachement went well, the children were so cute!!!Sorry but I can't reveal anything more...School policy.Must keep it confidential.
You know what?Ok, my emotion was pouring out...I might not be able to contain it anymore...so beware of my outburst.
On top of that, I was overwhelmed by the assigenment coming your way...Wow! It was like so MANY?Somrmore we still got test...no time for playing anymore!Plus I was like in different group with different people for all module(nearly),How can I meet all of them?Lucky dorothy they all...all together except me....ok.Fine.Never mind.Seriously, I was quite upset....they were like always together for their assignments...while I had to join another group....seriously, nobody spare a thought for my feelings...it is lamost like I am out of their clique...plus they were always together for assignment.They were drifting nearer to each other...me? I am dirfting further away from them...
ok, conclusion:I am DEFINITELY not ok at all.I am sick of telling myself I can do it, just give yourself some time!I am sick of being so quiet!I am sick of getting upset and hurt everday!I am sick of lying to myself that I am ok!Truth:I am never ok!!!It is really getting worse for me! I can really feel the emotions...drowning me.Ok, let's get ready for an outburst.I am so NOT happy when I started poly,I am so NOT happy when I am in class esp FNENG( I feel so alone!!)Neither am I feeling happy after school, during the weekend...I need help.Seriously.maybe I should have just talk to my friends, tell them how I feel...but that's is definitely going to end up ugly since I always tend to get more and more upset when I am talking...What should I do?HELP!!!
Amee Sotong signing off
8:45 AM