Ok, i am not that well this few days...
Ok, i wasn't really feeling well this few days...the 'Dark' side of me kept coming this few days...even today...ok.I try to calm myself down so nothing really happen...Phew.But, it is really strange how my heart hurts when actually nothing was hurting me...ok, maybe the clique thing(wei han never include me)...well, I keep telling myself sometimes it is normal for people to left out someone.Everybody made mistakes!Why are you so sensitive?Plus...sorry but I am not telling.
Ya,Don't worry, at least I am back.For now.These few days have been quite tough for me because of the stupid dark side.Never mind, i just keep myself busy will do.
Yesterday is mother's day.I make a book mark for my mother and my younger sister make a card and a box with a paper rose inside but well, you see...the box is actually a box for facial cream and my mother thought it was facial cream or sth but...(lightning and thunder)...a paper rose.Haha.It is a pity.I didn't saw her expression since I went out to borrow books(again)Haha.
As for today, I went early to study since they say they wanted to study but when I arrived there I was like 'Huh?Nobody there?'(because they always early(Evie and Dorothy)mostly)I even think I was being fool...so quickly sms again to Dorothy.She say she will be late....then sms again to Weihan and Evie...Wei han also late...Evie did not reply...so I ended up sitting there waiting and studying.But really, how can you study when there was this'bo...' thing ( construction work) going on?I really don't know but at least I did study for about 30 minutes...
Then, Wei han came(finally) and we sit there, back to study, waiting for Dorothy...I got a headache and give up.Just stare into space till about 11am.(Already like 1 hour)before weihan and me go library...( cannot stand it, stupid construction work!!!!)
Ya, just sit down do the owrk for about 45 mins?Then we went to eat.By the time, Dorothy was not coming....so ok.Fine.But you want know sth?It was really quiet throughout the whole thing....I ask question and weihan goes 'Ya' then he asks questions then i go'ya'....MSN, where are you?Ok, conclusion:Better to talk in MSN then face to face.Really, I never been so quiet before....ok, maybe in early years but...bad memories, better don't mention.
Well, the day continue and it is really HOT!!!And I went home after lesson.Then, it came again...the 'Dark' side of me.Ok, it was like really strong...but luckily it pass after I watch TV and take a nap.Phew.Strange.It has really been years since I feel that...better keep myself busy.
Plus I also find out that I am quite a greedy person....when I started poly, I wanted a lot of friends.I got it.then, I wanted a clique.I got it.Now, I want true best friends...it is really a SIN to be so greedy...How can I be like that???Haiz...gotta go.Bye.
P.s.:The mentor people call yesterday.Going this saturday to primary school...hope it turns out well...
P.s.s: Tomorrow attachment....please, let everything be all right!!!Keep your fingers crossed!
Amee Sotong signing off
8:44 AM